Today was another good day. I met up this morning with some “Beckett Fans” back in Upland at our house to discuss options on how to fix our bathroom (supposedly we need a new tub…ours was leaking) and even fixing the drywall from our roof leaking a few months ago (there was a massive storm in our town). Normal wear-n-tear from owning a house is expected, but these issues have been especially stressful to be dealing with these past few months. However, we are so thankful for an amazing community willing to help out during this time of need. Home repairs are kind of the last thing we want to be dealing with right now, but it has to get done. I was originally planning on possibly putting in a patio this summer (before we knew about Beckett’s condition), but finances aren’t necessarily permitting and priorities have had to be rearranged. Hopefully someday. 🙂
I spent a few hours today back on campus (at TU) and was encouraged by many familiar faces who have been following our updates. I can’t believe that Beckett will be having surgery one week from tomorrow! We knew it would come fast, and it has. It’s actually scary to talk about it. I’m not sure those whom I was talking to could hear it in my voice (because I was trying to hide it), but I couldn’t help but literally quiver a little when talking about his surgery being one week away. I know it isn’t really a healthy thought, but if/when I would say out loud, “I hope this isn’t the last week with my son”, it would require all the strength I had in that moment to not break down. Again, I understand that thoughts and statements like that aren’t necessary or helpful, but it certainly puts this week in perspective and focused my attention on what is important right now. There is no convincing reason to believe that Beckett won’t do fine with this upcoming surgery, but sometimes it’s hard to not imagine the worst. I guess it does help realign my attention to cherish these moments, and I would say that there are times thoughts like that could be healthy even in YOUR lives to not live like tomorrow is a guarantee. I’m not advocating that you should live in fear, or constantly assume that the last time you see someone may be the last…but I AM saying that this journey has certainly helped me decrease how often I take situations, friendships, and family for granted. For some of you, this might be a healthy concept to meditate on. But I must say, my intention has not been to use this blog to tell others what they should be doing….but rather, share with you what it is we have been wrestling through, struggling with, failing at, and hopefully learning! It’s been a delicate balance to write transparently, honestly, and boldly…so I hope you’ve found this blog to be informative and encouraging as it has been therapeutic for us as well. It isn’t always easy taking the time to write out our thoughts and daily activities each evening (especially having a long stressful day), but we have such an amazing following who have supported us, prayed for us, encouraged us and have simply been there for us nearly SIX MONTHS NOW! …..it’s amazing! You just deserve it. It’s only fair to try and write down a few words each evening to document and share this amazing journey of Beckett Jude Rupp with the world (our website has been hit by 49 countries…that’s crazy!)
So, to wrap up. I completely anticipate these updates getting more and more boring, as I hope to have less and less to share (other than how amazing Beckett’s recovery is going). As I’ve mentioned before, we are eager and excited to bring Beckett home (whenever that day may be), and look forward to showing him off to whomever wants to meet this little stud. We continue to ask for healing, and certainly an amazing, smooth, and successful surgery next Tuesday (July 2nd!). Thank you!