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February 5, 2013

A great quote from a John Piper devotional:

God loves us not in a way that makes us supreme, but makes himself supreme. Heaven will not be a hall of mirrors but an increasing vision of infinite greatness. Getting to heaven and finding that we are supreme would be the ultimate let down.

The greatest love makes sure that God does everything in such a way as to uphold and magnify his own supremacy so that when we get there we have something to increase our joy forever — God’s glory. The greatest love is God’s giving himself to us for our eternal enjoyment forever, at the cost of his Son’s life (Romans 8:32).

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Everyone stay tuned for tonight’s “UPDATE” as Leah will be filling everyone in on Beckett’s day. Spoiler-Alert: he IS doing “good”. #BabySteps — with Leah ‘Whiteley’ Rupp.

February 4, 2013

UPDATE (2/4/13)

Beckett had a good night and is having a good lil day today as well. They haven’t changed much, other than some of his heart medicine and continual discussions of a weaning schedule. We have been waiting to see the Cardiologist today, but it’s after 6:30pm now, so he may not be coming. Things like that are what we have been getting used to. Everyone means well, but there are many other “sick” people/kids, so sometimes what is promised doesn’t necessarily happen (hence we take “baby-steps” one day at a time, oftentimes one hour at a time).

Please keep in mind and pray for my wife, Leah. I am leaving for home tonight for a few days. I have classes, assignments, obligations, etc again for the next few days and she will be here by herself this time. As troubling as it will most likely be for me to be away from them, my concern is all the more focused on their well-being than my own. So again, please keep both Beckett and Leah in your thoughts and prayers. I desperately desire a smooth week of progress for them, healing, and a sense of love and comfort.

Lastly, and if you get a moment, please take some time to check out: https://heartofbeckett.com/. This is a challenge for me to highlight, but I am being encouraged to swallow my pride and bring attention to a benefit concert/auction taking place on February 23rd (there are more details on the website). I guess I find some boldness to spread the word because it is a cause completely focused on Beckett, and not me. In fact, we are setting up a fund in his name in which we’ve sought out advice on how to properly, ethically, purposefully do anything financially related. The website also has a giving tab. Please know that any funds are/will go to anything Beckett related and not a new flat screen TV. BUT, please don’t feel obligated to give anything, I’m not allowing a giving tab to just take your money, nor am I really asking for it. Family and Friends have strongly suggested us to do this, and so we are. This is an opportunity to allow anyone to get involved in this way if they feel led, but otherwise, please keep Beckett in your prayers. This is what I’ve asked for since the beginning, and continue to ask for. I just want a “healthy” son. I want to bring him home, do father/son things, and give him the opportunity to be as “normal” as possible. We never asked for this attention, but are thankful for what God is and has already done through this situation. I must end again by saying/quoting:

Psalm 138:1-3

I give you thanks, O Lord, with my whole heart;

before the gods I sing your praise;

I bow down toward your holy temple

and give thanks to your name for your steadfast love and your faithfulness,

for you have exalted above all things

your name and your word.

On the day I called, you answered me;

my strength of soul you increased.

(but read the rest of the chapter…it’s great!)

Thanks everyone!!! I’m so honored to even share this journey with you all. I pray that it has been just as much of a blessing to you as it has to us. To God be the Glory, everyday, and through every situation. — with Leah ‘Whiteley’ Rupp at St. Vincent Women’s Hospital.

February 3, 2013

UPDATE (2/3/13)

We are rejoicing in another good night. However, Beckett’s ‘flow’ on his VapoTherm (the step down from his Ventilator) did get turned back up a little because he has been working harder to breathe, which is a small step backwards but not detrimental. He received a rescue dose of morphine and it has really helped, which makes it look like withdrawal issues as opposed to respiratory issues.

We are beginning to meet some great people (nurses) over here in the NICU as we are slowly becoming acclimated to this new environment. Change is always uncomfortable, but that doesn’t mean it’s bad.

I think we are being told that everything is going to slow down a little (as far as weaning, airflow, etc)…we are being warned that progress is typically slow around here, yet there is continual progress non-the-less. Once again our patiences will be tested, but I guess Beckett is worth the wait. 😉 We cannot wait to get this lil booger home, but ‘good things come to those who wait’!

1 Chronicles 16:10-13

Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice. Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always. Remember the wonders he has done, his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced, you his servants, the descendants of Israel, his chosen ones, the children of Jacob.

https://heartofbeckett.com/ — with Leah ‘Whiteley’ Rupp at St. Vincent’s Womens Hospital.

February 2, 2013

UPDATE (2/2/13)

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Today was a bit emotionally taxing. It wasn’t necessarily immersed in tears (though some), but possibly just a culmination of exhaustion, disappointment and some fear. But I digress, Beckett is doing better and we’ve had an opportunity to discuss protocol and ‘game plans’ with the doctor…which was actually quite comforting. Rather than remaining in Tachycardia (his heart rate in the 200s) for upwards to 2 hours…they will now call the Cardiologist within 15-20 minutes if this happens again…….but it won’t happen again, right?! 😉

– simple truths –

I Peter 5:7

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Psalm 139:13-15

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. — with Leah ‘Whiteley’ Rupp at St Vincent Womans Hospital.

February 2, 2013

UPDATE (2/2/13)
Welcome back to what some have labeled ‘the never ending saga’. We did not receive a phone call last night, which is typically a promising sign that Beckett had a good night. However, we were greeted this morning with the news that Beckett did race his heart rate up last night to about 200 (which is certainly not desired) for nearly 2 hours. Though we could have received much worse news than that (#perspective), this update was fairly discouraging. We aren’t really sure yet just how much of a ‘set back’ this is, but it is obviously not the news we wanted to hear. Clearly our desire is for continual progress, and not necessarily the ‘Beckett Standard’ of a few steps forward and one step back. This is a ‘gentle’ reminder that we are not done yet, and a new chapter that will include it’s own set of obstacles and hurdles. The message that is ‘easier said than done’ is to remind ourselves just how far we’ve come and all the glorious victories we’ve experienced within the last few weeks. Not one person said this would be easy, so our perspective should be properly set for this bumpy road….just sometimes weakness is a natural byproduct of our trying times.

At this point I feel as if I’m just venting and not necessarily writing anything informative.
Sooooo….please pray for peace, healing and perseverance while normal life tries to squeeze in and priorities are all the more difficult to properly balance/juggle.
…….thank you

— with Leah ‘Whiteley’ Rupp at St. Vincent’s Womens Hospital.

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February 1, 2013

UPDATE (2/1/13)

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I feel like all my posts have begun this way as of late, but I guess I’m thankful for the monotony. With that being said, Beckett is doing well! 🙂 He really did have another good day! Very very uneventful. As you can see from the picture, we got to hold him again this evening. We were told last night that we weren’t allowed to hold him because his drainage tube in his chest got attached to a ‘water seal’, and for however long that is the case we aren’t allowed to hold him. Weeell, the nurse this evening wasn’t all that fond of that news and decided to ‘look into it’ for us. Long-story-short(er)….reference the attached image. 😉

Ok, one specific thing to keep in mind would be his withdraws. Beckett is slowly literally displaying every sign of withdraws right now from all his pain medicine. This is inevitable, and we were warned of this weeks ago. This may be an emotionally taxing time for us, but more importantly, please pray for Beckett that this goes quickly and smoothly.

With that being said, we are very thankful for another great day and pray for many more to come!! Thank you all for the consistent support!!

— with Leah ‘Whiteley’ Rupp at St.Vincent Women’s Hospital.

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February 1, 2013

Perfect Moment

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#reminiscing …look how far we’ve come…

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February 1, 2013

UPDATE (2/1/13)

Wow, February 1st?!

One month ago today we were here at St. Vincent’s NICU waiting to be transferred to the PICU for Beckett’s first surgery. I know I’ve mentioned this before, but this has gotta be the fastest AND slowest month of our lives. I cannot believe everything my son has gone through in such a short period of time (and at such a young age).

We began this morning with a visit from some good friends to find Beckett being the All-Star he is. He had a great night, his stats look great, and all the Doctor had to say was a slight tweak in some of his medication. Their plan is for yet another uneventful/quiet day….in which we are certainly always in favor of.

I was reminded of a great passage this morning a good friend shared with me, Exodus 14:14, which says: ‘The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still.’ I think I stumbled upon this passage early on in this journey, but it’s a great reminder of what I mentioned a few days ago….that we must rely on The Lord to be our strength, ‘for our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.’ (Ephesians 6:12)

It’s gonna be a great day and a quiet weekend of healing and a mountain of love poured all over my son. I’m such a proud Dad (as I know I keep saying, but I can’t help it), and am excited to battle this next chapter right alongside of Beckett and his Mom, and welcome all who dare to continue this journey with us!

https://heartofbeckett.com/ — with Leah ‘Whiteley’ Rupp at St. Vincent’s Womens Hospital.

January 31, 2013

UPDATE (1/31/13)

-Mission Accomplished-

Beckett is officially transferred to the St. Vincent Women’s Hospital NICU (just a few blocks away from where we’ve been). His stats look great, and he’s even starting to get his voice back a little (it’s really cute).

My grad-school classes began again today, and I officially got a taste of what it may look and feel like this semester to be in class and not with my son. Don’t worry, I only cried in both my classes (one much worse than the other). It was kind of embarrassing, but my cohort and professors are the best, and have been very patient and compassionate with me. I’m hoping this intense emotional distress may balance out as the semester unfolds…but until then, uh oh. 😉 My classmates may be in for a nice sappy treat. :-\

Now that we are no longer at the PICU, we also don’t have ‘free’ housing anymore. Our housing situation will need to be assessed and strategized this weekend…but we are confident something will work out. We do qualify for 2 free nights a week here at a hotel that is in conjunction with the hospital, so that should help a lot!

Ok, enough about us and more about the ‘Star of the Show’. This step is sincerely really substantial in Beckett’s immediate journey. It’s very scary to no longer be at the PICU (another ‘crutch’ and comfort zone for us), but we really are in good hands over here at the NICU…and it’s honestly not like they’ve never seen a patient like Beckett before (but I bet it’s been a while since they’ve had a patient as cute as him ;-)).

Well anyways, that’s the update for tonight. It’s been a long day…but it’s been a good day. I’ve gotta personally thank my Taylor family for all your support and encouragement today. It was really great to see y’all again!

I’ll post again in the morning…and if you aren’t reading this post from https://heartofbeckett.com/ don’t forget to check it out and pass it along. I’m not ashamed, and I’m quite proud of my son’s story! He’s ‘the man’….and I truly can’t wait for many of you to meet him!

goodnight — with Leah ‘Whiteley’ Rupp at St Vincent Womans Hospital.