Heart of Beckett

UPDATE (11/17/18)

Well, we feel like we are finally trying some things. Thankfully (out of 20 cardiologists, or so) Beckett’s actual cardiologist, Dr. Schamberger, is back on. Everyone else has done well, but it’s nice to have someone back that knows Beckett and his history so well. Soo…as tactfully as we could address it, we asked if we can finally “do something.” We just feel like we’ve been sitting here for days waiting for a cough to pass (which isn’t really all we’ve been doing…but it just feels like it sometimes). So, they are actually going to try a different antibiotic and possibly a breathing treatment they have been dragging their feet on. They are thinking it’s possible Beckett’s original pneumonia was actually atypical, so while the antibiotics improved his symptoms it didn’t fully go away which might be why he is still having trouble. We are hopeful and optimistic that this will help. We really want to go home, but at one point they casually said something like, “let’s try this antibiotic for a few days and see how he’s doing.” Ahhhh! 😔 Sooo, it still might be a few more days. We really do need to get back to work. I’m falling behind on my duties, and when Leah doesn’t work, she doesn’t make any money (being hourly and all). Sooo, we’re stuck between wanting to be here for him and needing to keep employed and have a paycheck coming in. But, this is life right now and when we are able to take a step back we have to remind ourselves how thankful we are that Beckett is still here and these challenges are all we are dealing with right now. For perspective, the other day we heard them call out on the overhead speakers an emergency ECMO call (which is where we use to be 6 years ago…it’s basically “life-support” or bypass). Our heart breaks for what those families are working through right now. Those were some very VERY scary and draining days for us. That is certainly not where we are at right now. So again, thankful (with perspective) for another day with our charming little boy.

So, thanks again everyone. Thanks for the prayers…and, we’ll keep taking things one-day-at-a-time. Oh, and if you want to “give” anything financially, our giving page is still up on the HeartOfBeckett website….but certainly don’t feel any obligation. The prayers and encouragement is great as well. Thank you everyone. Truly.

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UPDATE (11/16/18)

Still here. We made the tough decision to actually suggest staying another night because we have yet to stay the night without oxygen support (as much as we REALLY want to go home). We pulled him off oxygen again this morning, but unfortunately during his nap he began to desat (again, while off oxygen). So, the nurse had to come in and put his nasal cannula back in. We’ve tried some breathing treatment exercises since then that have seemed to help, and Leah thinks that some lasix will help him (he seems a little “fluid overloaded”). So, we’ll see if all that helps. For a moment it was looking like we were electively saying we want to go home tomorrow, but at this point I’m not 100% sure that’ll even happen. We’ll see if they agree with the lasix and if the breathing exercises work. If so, maybe…if not…we’ll see how much longer it’ll be. Time will tell.

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UPDATE (11/15/18)

Beckett is doing okay…that’s the perspective we are trying to hold onto. At least things aren’t “life-threatening” right now. As many of you know, Beckett is a sweetheart…but today he was extra ornery (and not in the endearing kind of way). Perhaps it’s our lack of patience with this process…but today just seemed extra long and extra tiring. However, I will say the evening ended very cute. I drug Leah out of the room after we put Beckett down (she doesn’t leave often) and we shared some ice cream together. She said, “I should get back to him…he’s probably waiting for me.” Admittedly, she was kind of being facetious…however, she later texted me this:

Beckett’s awake. He said “mommy you’re back. I stayed up all night waiting in case you needed me”

…and in one swoop he nearly redeems the entire day.

From a clinical standpoint, Beckett is doing okay (as mentioned). The test they did last night (and then later I learned they had to redo it again around 3:00am) showed that his liver, gall bladder and pancreas look fine. This is good to hear, but still discouraging because we still don’t have any answers. We actually tried proving that Beckett didn’t need the oxygen support this morning, but unfortunately he failed that test. Within a few minutes his oxygen saturation levels dropped 10 points and his heart rate began to rise. So, they had to put it back on. That’s disappointing. Everyone wants to go home. We’re over this. But Beckett still has a cough and still needs oxygen. He hasn’t had another “gut-wrenching episode” for over 48 hours (which is why we admitted him in the first place), but now we have this oxygen dependency out of nowhere. So we wait, and wait, and wait. I’d like to say we might go home tomorrow, but honestly it doesn’t really even look like that may happen.

We appreciate the prayers, support, visits, food…you all have been great. Thank you so much. We’ll make it through…one-day-at-a-time.

#GoBeckett

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UPDATE (11/14/18)

Not much to report on. We are out of isolation (no more gowns, gloves or masks), so that’s good. We also haven’t had any painful episodes since yesterday. Beckett (and Mommy) got some decent rest last night too.

The unfortunate/frustrating thing is that we had to withhold Beckett from dinner because we were told they wanted to do one more test/scan on him (for his liver, gall bladder and pancreas). However, it is 10:00pm now and we still haven’t gone down. So, we are hungry (perhaps hangry), tired…and as a result Beckett has lowered his sats a little in which they have now increased his oxygen support (which is not the right direction if you are hoping to go home soon). Sooo…hopefully we’ll go down for the scan soon…get good results…eat some LATE dinner…and get some sleep. I think we just need to be done with the day, and maybe…just maybe we can go home tomorrow. We’ll see.

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UPDATE (11/13/18)

Well, as many of you saw us post last night (or I guess early this morning), we are at it again. In every true sense this really is starting to feel like the earlier days (nearly six years ago). To be honest, I don’t really know what to say. Yes, we had that “issue” a few weeks ago and have largely been okay since then. I will add that Beckett has never really fully gotten over a cough he’s had since the time of that surgery. In short, he’s woken up the past four nights in a row crying and whimpering in pain…but last night was even worse. He was very blue, satting 40 (that’s really bad), breathing heavily, heart rate elevated, and clutching his stomach in pain. Obviously we are immediately concerned about his heart, but thankfully his heart seems okay. We asked him about his head, his throat, his chest, his breathing…but the only thing he has said is that his stomach hurts. However, he winces in pain so badly from it (and out of nowhere too) that it spikes his heart rate and his oxygen saturations plummet. It’s not fun to be around. To be honest, it’s a little scary. So we brought him in to Ball Memorial Hospital’s ER. They were in for a treat. It’s not everyday they see a 5-yr-old satting 60 or below and the parents seem okay with it. It was endearing (in the most respectful way) how concerned everyone there was. It truly felt like they cared, but it didn’t take long until they referred us to Riley. So, after being up for an entire day and my wife on the clock that evening (last night) we made our way down to Riley…again. I drove back home to Upland to pack up some things and sleep for a few hours. But, we’re back. And perhaps most discouraging is nobody seems to know what to do. They even “quarantined” us (hence the garb, gloves and mask) because they don’t know what Beckett has. And he doesn’t like it. lol He keeps asking us to take it off.

Sooo….here we are. This is everything I know. I guess tomorrow is a new day and we are just praying for answers. Thanks again (as always) for all the encouragement (“likes,” messages, texts, calls, etc). We really do have such an amazing support network. We appreciate you all very much.

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